If we roleplay:
1. Don’t apologize for being late/slow with replies.
2. Take all of the time you need. Days, weeks, months, doesn’t matter. Don’t put yourself under stress because of such pointless things.
3. Your personal life out of character along with your health are the most important. If you drop a thread/conversation/whatever, it’s alright. Just stay safe and take care.
“I’ve got to….”
She’d had it before. She knew she did, didnt she? Lilliana had spoken the words before. Who she was looking for, but the name, the face, it was there, and then it was gone. Stolen away from her and giving her such a sense of loss that she couldn’t understand. But it wasn’t like Lilliana Betters to let others see such pain and worry on her face. No sir. Well, not unless it was physical pain. She didnt have a high tolerance for that sort of thing.
Instead she looked lost, but not panicked over it. Like a quiet child, watching their shiny new balloon float away into the sky, knowing there was no hope of getting it back. “I’ve got to find someone… someone important…” She murmured.
The bunette snapped out of it quickly, clasping her hands together as if it would shoo away that sense in the pit of her stomach. “Right then! You were going to help me repair this old girl, right?” It was getting to the point where she couldn’t remember it was called a TARDIS. All the same, she grabbed the Doctor by the wrist, pulling him along to the screen at the console where she’d been following directions. “See this thingy here and this thingy here are supposed to go together, but the ends wont fit, and I dunno if there’s like an adapter or something. But dont try to force them together,” Lilly pulled down her sleeve a little to show the burn on her hand, “Or she’ll bite back if you’re rough.”
The Doctor simply watched Lilly waiting to see if perhaps a name would come out from her. Instead it looked as if she was about to cry out from pain, as if something was preventing her from remembering everything that had happened thus far. It hurt to see her struggling so much. “To find who, Lilly? Try hard— You’ve got to know who..Who do you have to find?”
As if someone had flipped a switch, Lilly seemed to quickly move on from her small lapse in memory, grabbing the Doctor’s wrist. Following her along he use a free hand to pull his sonic out from his pocket. The Doctor was used to the TARDIS and her moods and what not, then again they’d been together for years now. Simply nodding he flashed Lilly a smile. “I think I can get them together—“ The Doctor’s smile faded as the burn was shown. Huffing he turned his attention back to the TARDIS, grabbing both of the items she had mentioned, with a small noise from his sonic he managed to get the two parts to fit together like a glove. “There we go! Now—”
His attention was completely on Lilly at this point. “—Wheres my Lilly?” Pointing the device at the other The Doctor scanned the woman over. Something wasn’t right, this wasn’t Lilly— It was but it just, something was missing from her memories as if something just erased him from her mind and prevented her from remembering.
“How do you know my name?”
It was another one of those nagging feelings coming about her. Something important that she had forgotten. The throb in her head suddenly became more apparent, as if recalling what it was, was being denied access. She wasn’t allowed to recall memories. It gradually increased, the back of her neck starting to grow hot like fire and it stung her - oh how sharp a sting it was.
Lilliana recoiled from the door, dropping the wrench she’d held in one hand. Hands clamped to either side of her head and she ‘tsk’ed, gritting her teeth against the ache and the fire and sting. “No - you’re… You’re my—” Words faltered, failed, and then vanished. In a matter of seconds since it started, to the moment the back of her heel hit that first step up to the console, Lilliana had been in pain - and then she forgot.
Lifting her head, almost as if nothing had happened at all, she looked at the Doctor with a new sort of unrecognized confusion. “Sorry, what? Are you a mechanic? I’ve got to fix her and hurry. I have to go find someone, but I cant go anywhere without this thing.”
Confusion over came the Doctor as Lilly questioned how he knew her name. His confusion now started to show on his face as he slowly shook his head. “Lilly, Lilly please— We’ve only been separated a few days.” Sputtering he took a few more steps towards he as he saw her drop the wrench, as if she was in pain of some sorts.
”Lilly?” Calling out towards he as went to take her into his arms, the Doctor was quick to fall silent. “I’m your Doctor, Lilly. Remember? Remember, the times we’ve had?” It was just as the memories had been forgotten, as if the Doctor had never existed to Lilly. “Please remember, Lilly…” Silently begging for his lover to remember him, the Doctor flailed a little.
A pang of regret, no pain, perhaps a bit of both now that the Doctor thought about it over came him, as if a wave had over came him. “A mechanic?” He asked once more, slowly shaking his head as his hand went to fish out his sonic. “Just who do you have to find?” Perhaps something had caused the girl to fall ill? Whatever it was, the Doctor was going to find out and fix his Lilly, he wanted his Lilly back.
She had no idea how long it had been her, just talking to the TARDIS for comfort and company. Maybe it had been a few days for her, maybe a few weeks. She cant recall. Time was slipping from her grasp and in reality, she might not have slept at all - but whatever was wrong with her made her think she had. The voice from beyond the closed doors of the TARDIS sounded familiar, but the strain on her mind said she didnt know who it was.
As a precaution, she grabbed a wrench on her way to the door, something for a weapon in case she felt threatened. “Well if you think you can get this old girl to talk sense then you’re more than welcomed. I’m going crazy trying to sort things out.” She pulled the door open after flipping the lock and paused. Before her stood something — someone she should know. There was a dull throb in her head and any sort of familiarity grew faint.
“I’m sorry — who are you? And how did you find me?”
The Doctor waited till Lilly simply emerged from the TARDIS, drawing near before finally he was there. However, the greeting he got was something far from what he imagined it’d be. Instead of having her practically tackle him, she simply seemed to just wander out..As if she had no idea who he was. As if she had no idea what they had been though, what they had encountered together, all of those memories just seemed to be gone.
Looking rather hurt for a moment, The Doctor’s brows came together as he took a few more steps. “—Ah, well I’m a bit of a tinker, so I’m sure I could manage.” And that’s when the question hit him, as if something had been tossed at his chest.
”Lilly..You know who I am. I’m the Doctor— We— Don’t you remember?”